the entry of dream job torn asunder

i have been furiously involved in my new company's spiel of activities: attending courses and whatnots, coaching my eager-beaver agents, meeting with prospective clients, recruitment of potential new agents, and to top it all, adjusting myself to a work culture that is breathtakingly met with dubiousness, on my side.

the problem with a huge organization, like most others, is that red tape takes an indefinitely large amount of time for things to be done. i guess i had too high of an expectation when i came in; most of their processes were arcane, if not slow. in fact, i had to call them up to find out i was finally contracted to the agency of the company i have signed up with, instead of the other way around, because i had been waiting on the god-damned contract to be processed for two whole weeks.

whatever the agency promised initially didn't really go hand-in-hand with the contract they shelled out at me, and for most of the part, there wasn't any proper black-and-white to fortify the auxiliary clauses agreed. for example, i was initially informed that i was appointed the role of an associate manager, but then last-minute changes were done and i am now just the equivalent of a senior financial planner. imagine getting that rug of a carpet tugged right off under your feet!

nevertheless, i am still up-and-about and doing the best i can, in an environment cluttered with ill-dispensed misgivings. i haven't and won't throw in the towel that easily, and perhaps, it's just the initial adaptations to a new agency in a new company that are giving me these redundant heart palpitations and sweaty palms. i solemnly swear to do my best because i believe, at the end of it all, if i could surpass working against adversity, i could surpass anything. well, almost anything.

meanwhile, i'm back on track with the rituals of sunday church-goings and reciting the litany. hopefully, this time round, my life will be on the right track after a long hiatus.

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